Powered by Blogger.
RSS

Bohat Masroof Lamhon Me Kabhi ik Pal Ko Socho To



Bohat Masroof Lamhon me
Kabhi ik Pal Ko Socho to,

Koi Kitna Akaila Hai
Kisi Ki Zindagi Tum Ho,

Kisi Ki Bandgi Tum Ho
Kisi Ko Teri Khawahish Hai,

Kisi Ki Chahtain Tum Ho
Kabi ik Pal Ko Socho To,

Tumhari Bewafai Ne
Tumhari Laparwhi Ne,

Tumhari Beneazi Ne
Kisi Ko Mar Dala Hai,

Koi Zinda To Hai Lekin 
Faqat Woh Saans Leta Hai,

Zara Ik Pal Ko Socho To
Koi Kitna Akaila Hai...!!!

=====================================================================
Bonas Ghazal: Kuch Ajab Shaan Se Logon Mein Raha Karte Thy


Kuch Ajab Shaan Se Logon Me Raha Karte Thy
Hum Khafa Reh Ke Bhi Aapas Me Mila Karte Thy,

Itni Tehzeeb Rah-O-Rasm To Baaqi Thi Ke Woh
Laakh Ranjish Sahi Wada To Wafa Karte Thy

Usne Puchha Tha Kaee Baar Magar Kya Kahiye
Hum Mizaajan Hi Pareshan Raha Karte Thy,

Khatam Tha Hum pe Mohabbat Ka Tamasha Goya
Rooh Aur Jism Ko Har Roz Juda Karte Thy,

Zindagi Humse Tere Naaz Uthaye Na Gaye
Saans Lene Ki Faqat Rasm Ada Karte Thy...!!!


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Shehar Mera Magar Waqar Uska Tha


Shehar Mera Magar Waqar Uska Tha
Meri Har Sham Ko Intezaar Uska Tha,

Mere Khuwaboon Pe Jo Kabiz Hai Ek Shakhs
Meri Aankhoon Me saara Khumaar Uska Tha,

Mere wajod se Jo Anjan Ban Chukaa Hai
Meri Har Sans Pe Qarar Uska Tha,

Jab Bhi Maangi Us Se Shaam-e-Wisaal
Meri Har Daleel pe Inkar Uska Tha,

Jo Shaamil Hain Mery Qatal Ki Saazish Me
Un Logon Me Shumaar Uska Tha,

Mere Jevan Ne Yeh Manzar bhi Dekh Liya
Pehlu Mera Khanjar Mera Aur Waar Uska Tha...!!!



  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Usy Apnay Dard Ki Fikar Thi Woh Jo Mera Waqif-e-Hal Tha



Usy Apnay Dard Ki Fikar Thi Woh Jo Mera Waqif-e-Hal Tha.
Wo Jo Uski Subha-e-Arooj Thi Wohi Mera Waqt-e-Zawal Tha!

Mera Dard wo Kesay janta Meri Bat Wo Kesay Maanta,
Woh To khud Fana k Safar Mein Tha Usay Rokna Bhi Mahal Tha!


Kahan Jao Gay Mujhay Chorr Kar, Main Pooch Poch ke Thak Gya,
Woh Jawab Mujhko na De Saka woh To Khud Sarapa Sawal Tha!

Woh Mila To Sadiyon Baad Bhi Meray Lab Pe Koi Gila na Tha,
Usy Meri Chup Ney Rula Diya Jisay Guftugu Mein kamal Tha...!!!


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

There All Night Long A Persian Poem in English Translation


There, all night long
someone inside of my breasts
struggled to breathe, battled to rise up,
and wished, wished you were there
but was held back by a pair
of frozen hands.

There, all night long,
from the gloomy twigs
sorrow rained down, down,
someone was falling, falling apart,
someone was calling, calling for you,
And the air, the heavy air
was collapsing on her
over and over.


My little plant was in love,
in love with the wind, the wandering wind!
Tell me, what is the wind’s address?
Where does the wind go, go
to rest?


Translation: Maryam Dilmaghani, June 2013, from Tehran.

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Urdu Poetry Images And Pictures Vol-1


Bewafai Ki Sab Kitaboon Me,
Tere Jesi Koi Misaal Nahi...!!!




Har Shakhs Se Sun Raha Hun Main Daastan Apni,
Bas Mujhko Hi Pata Nahi Main Barbaad Q Huaa...!!!




Hazaar Jaam Tasadu Hazaar Mekhany,

Nigha-e-Yaar Ki Lazzat Sharaab Kiya Jane...!!!




Ishq Karny Chaly Ho To Yeh Jaan Lo,
Is Me Hansty To Saath Hain Magar Rona Akely Hi Parta Hain...!!!




Khool Bethy Hain Dukaan husan Farooshi Ki,
Kuch Loog Is Baazar Ko Naam Ishq Ka Dekar...!!!




Main Apny Halaat Se Sulha To Kar Lon Lekin,
Mujhme Jo Ik Shakhs Ro Poosh Hai Marr Jaega...!!!




Milty Hi Chura Lety Ho Nigahain,
Kiya Khoob Samajhty Ho Nigahon Ki Zubaan Tum...!!!




Muhabbat Kiya Hai Mat Pocho Ise Bas Raaz Hi Rehny Do,
Yeh Easa Lafz Hai Jiski Wazahat Dard Deta Hai...!!!




Muhabbat Me Intha Dard Ki Shayad Tuny Dekhi Nahi,
Ary Naadan Rasm-E-Ishq Me Rona Jaiz Nahi Hota...!!!




Rehny Do Abb Ke Tum Bhi Mujhy Parh Na Sakogy,
Barsaat Me Kaghaz Ki Tarha Bheeg Gaya Hon Main...!!!




Toba Q Karty Ho Tum Ishq Se Ay Muhabbat Wabasta Logo,
Mehboob Tumhara Bewafa Ho To Is Me Ishq Ka Kiya Kasoor...!!!




Tu Mujhse Doori Barhany Ka Shook Pora Kar,
Meri Bhi Zidd Hai Tujhy Har Duaa Me Mangonga...!!!




Tum Dil Ko Lieay Bethy Ho,
Ishq Naslain Ujaar Deta Hai...!!!




Wabasta Ho Gai Thi Kuch Umedain Aap Se,
Umeedon Ka Chiraagh Bujhany Ka Shukraya...!!!




Yaqeen Hai Keh Na Aaeingy Mujhse Woh Milne,
To Dil Ko Mery Yeh Intzaar Kesa Hai...!!!



  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Galli Main Dard Ke Purze Talash Karti Thi



Galli Main Dard Ke Purze Talash Karti Thi
Mere Khatoot ke Tukrre Talash Karti Thi,

Bholaye Kon Azeeat Pasandiyan Usski
Khushi Ke Dhair Main Sadme Talash Karti Thi,

Ajab Hijr Parasti Thi Uski Fitrat Main
Shajar Ke Toot'ty Patte Talash Karti Thi,

Qayam Karti Thi WOH Mujh Main Soofiyon Ki Tarhan
Udass Rooh Ke Goshay Talash Karti Thi,

Tamaam Raat WOh Parday Hata Ke Chand Ke Saath
Jo Kho Gaye Thay WOH Lamhe Talash Karti Thi,

Kuch Iss Liye Bhi Mere Ghar Se USS KO Thi Vehshat
Yahan Bhi Apne Hi Payare Talash Karti Thi,

Ghuma Phira Ke Judai Ki Baat Karti Thi
Hamesha Hijer Ke Harbe Talash Karti Thi,

Tamam Raat WOH Zakhma Ke Apni Pooron KO
Mere Wajood Ke Raaz Talash Karti Thi,

Duayen Karti Thi Ujrre Huway Mazaron Per
Bari Ajeeb Sahare Talash Karti Thi,


Mujhe to Aaj Bataya Hai Badlon Ne ”Wasi”
WOH Laut Aane Ke Raaste Talash Karti Thi...!!!

=====================================================================
Bonas GhazalMujhy Aazaad Kar Do Naa

Mujhy Aazaad kar do na
Ke main hun Qaid Barson se,

Judaie ki Aziat me
Zehar bhar de ga ye Zalim,

Meri nazuk Tabiat me
Na do ab hosla mujh ko,

Bata do Rasta mujh ko
Koi bahir Niklany ka,

Hawaa me Phir se Urny ka
Mujhy us Dais jana hai,

Jahan Panchhi Utarty hain
Jahan Mausam Badalty hain,

Meri Banjar si Aankhon me
Meri Betaab Sansoon me,

Koi to Rang Bhar do na

Mujhy Aazaad Kar do na...!!!


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

You Were Born To Be Real, Not To Be Perfect





♥~"You are the only version of you. Why waste time trying to fit into the mold of someone else? Many times people do this because they feel as though the person that they really are is too conflicting of a person to deal with society, causing a conflict within their own selves. Many times this causes people to become hard to deal with, leading them to become aloof and alone. If this is you, you have to think about how you may be able to get yourself out of this limiting mindset and way of life. You have to be able to tune out the negative things you are telling yourself, and habitually tell yourself positive things instead. Focus on where you are going, instead of where you are presently, and remember that there will always be negative people around. Have the strength to keep walking your walk; you are you for a reason, only you have your destiny.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Don't Let Your Mouth Speak What Your Heart Doesn't Feel





♥~"We are all guilty of this, and though this isn't right, it is human nature to go with popular opinion instead of what we know to be true inside of our hearts. We should make an effort to not let what we hear from others be undeniable fact in our eyes, and we should never speak out against something that we know in our hearts isn't for us to speak out on. 

Doing so will not only cause us confusion, but it will also cause others confusion. Be real, be who you are. Stand up for the things in life that you know in your heart that you are supposed to stand for. Don't ever just stand up for everything that other people want you to stand up for, because in the end you will just fall and be forced to stand up again for what you know is really right!~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

If you have someone who ...





♥~"If you have someone who understands you, who is patient with you, who loves you genuinely, who cares about you, who respects you, who is proud of you, who doesn't take a day without calling or texting you, who never fails to fix time for you, who fears to lose you. Please love that person. Don't take his or her care & love for granted because such people are very rare to find these days. Don't let such a person slip out of your hands over minor disagreements. If you are the one in wrong admit and ask for FORGIVENESS. Handle that person with delicacy. Be there for him or her. Do whatever it takes for both of you to last forever. Be open to that person. Don't be so nagging to such a person. Be trustworthy, faithful and appreciative.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Sometimes you just need a little bit of time for yourself





♥~"Sometimes you just need a little bit of time for yourself to clear up your mind and see things from a new perspective..~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Never be ashamed of who you are





♥~"Never be ashamed of who you are. You have to accept that not everyone is going to love you back, that's why it's most important to love yourself. It's not about being what everyone wants you to be, it's about being yourself and finding someone who truly loves you for what you are. The only thing that will make you happy is being happy with who you are, and not who people think you are. If you always accept and be comfortable for your flaws, no one can ever use them against you. So don't change just to please someone. Just be simple, original and unique in your own way.~ ♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Quote for the Day 30Jun2013

Who or what is your "god"? In who or what do you put your hope? Let the LORD God be your God. Trust only in Him. He will not let you down. - Bayo Afolaranmi


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it





♥~"For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

when we opened our eyes in this world ... we found something called love


 

when we opened our eyes in this world ... we found something called love ... maybe we weren't aware about its meaning but somehow we were feeling it ... as we keep growing we've been realizing that life without it has no meaning ...

love is not only the relationship between man and woman ... but it's the relationship between a human and another human ... being a father, a mother, a daughter, a son, a friend, a wife, a husband or any human being ... love is the bound that keeps humans touched with each other ... love is the emotion that makes us live together in happiness with all our differences ... it makes us respect and accept the other the way they are ... it's the hope in this life ...

there are times in which we feel sad … disappointed … or even destroyed … It’s not the end of the world … life may destroy us … but we shouldn’t let it defeat us … no one of us has lived this life without failures … even the earth on which we are living has sunny days and dark nights … but I believe that if we get up after we fall down … if we learn how to smile while our eyes are full of tears … if we learn how to love while we are hurt ... we would absolutely overcome any obstacle that we may face in our journey …

i love you

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Quote for the Day 29Jun2013

The man who does more than he is paid for will soon be paid for more than he does. - Napoleon Hill


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

When you know your value


♥~"When you know your value, you don't have to beg people to be in your life, to be friends with you, to spend time with you or to love you... Be confident in who you are, just remember not everyone can handle luxury!~ ♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

judge them by their actions, not words




♥~"You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by 
their actions, not words, that matter.~ ♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

It's the way you look at life that matters




♥~"When you focus on problems, you will have more problems. When you focus on possibilities, you will have more opportunities. It's the way you look at life that matters.~ ♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Urdu Ghazals Collection Vol-3

Woh kesa shaks hay ke har rooz saza deta hay
Phir hansta hay woh itna ke sab bhula deta hay,

Kabhi jo ro day to mujhy bhi bhool jata hay
Aur phir bhool ke mujh ko bhi rula deta hay,

Hamaray pas na aany ki kasam kha kar woh
AAJA Likhata hai woh, khaghaz pay urra deta hay,

Us say poocho ke bata kis say muhabbat hay tumhain
Naam sargoshi me mera hi suna deta hay,

Kabhi kehta hay chalo saath hamesha mere
chal paroon saath to raasta hi phira deta hay,

Khud hi kehta hai na dohraao purani yaadain
Main na dohraaoon to phir khud hi sunaa deta hay...!!!



محبٌت میں کہاں ترمیم ھوتی ھے؟
محبٌت میں ھمیشہ ایک سا موسم نہیں رہتا
کبھی ھے وصل کی رم جھم
بھگو دیتی ھے آنچل کو
،دلِ بیکل کو،چنچل کو

کبھی ھے ھجر کا جلتا دہکتا کاسنی سورج
،لہو میں خار بھرتا ھے
بالآخر سُرمئی سایوں میں ڈھلتا ھے
،جو پلکوں پر مچلتا ھے
محبٌت کے مسافر کی کوئی منزل نہیں ھوتی
،محبٌت کا جو کُلیہ ھے
بدلنے کا کبھی امکان ھوتاہی نہیں اس میں
،سُنا ھے زندگی پل پل یہاں تقسیم ھوتی ھے
محبٌت میں کہاں ترمیم ھوتی ھے...؟؟؟


Urooj par hay Tumhara Mousam
Khizaan Me Tum ko Khareed lengay,

Bano gay Hum say Reham Ke Talib
Na Tumko Mohlat Mazeed dengay,

Adaa Ke Qissay huay Purany
Jafa ka Mousam Khatam hi samjho,

Karengy Tum say Hisaab jana
Na Tum ko Mohlat Mazeed dengay,

Wafa ki Lalach Me Hum nay Jana
Khoon apna JALA diya hay,

Faraib-o-Masti Ke Badlay Tum ko
Saza bhi Sun lo Shadeed dengay,

Urooj par hay Tumhara Mousam
Khizaan Me Tum ko Khareed lengay...!!!


Mujhe Tum Chor Mat Dena

Hazaron Dorian hain Par
Yeh rishta tor mat dena,

Mera chehra bhula dena
Meri yaadainn bacha lena,

Jo lamhey dard dete Hon
Une beshak bhula dena,

Une dil se laga lena
Kahin bhi door reh lena,

Buhat majboor reh lena
Magar is doorie ko tum,

Bahana mat bana lena
Taluq tor mat dena,

Mujhe Tum Chor Mat Dena



یہ سال بھی آخر بیت گیا
،کچھ ٹیسیں، یادیں خواب لیے

چند کلیاں، چند گلاب لیے
،کچھ انکھڑیاں پرآب لیے

کچھ اجلے دن کچھ کالی راتیں
،کچھ سچے دکھ، جھوٹی باتیں

کچھ تپتی رتیں، کچھ برساتیں
،کسی یار عزیز کا دکھ پیارا

کسی چھت پہ امیدوں کا تارا
،جس پہ ہنستا تھا جگ سارا

اس شاعر نے جو حرف لکھے
،اس میں تیری یاد کے ساۓ تھے

وہ لوگ بھی آخر لوٹ گئے
،جو صدیوں پار سے آۓ تھے

ان ہنستے بستے لوگوں نے
،میرے سارے دکھ اپناۓ تھے

پھر میں نے یاد کی مٹی میں
!!!...زخمی لمحے دفناۓ تھے


Jazbaat behkete hain jab tumse milta hon
Armaan machalte hain jab tumse milta hon,

Saath hum dono ka koi bardasht nahi karta
Sab humse jalte hai jab tumse milta hon,

Ankhon se tum jaane kya kya keh deti ho
Toofan se chalte hain jab tum se milta hon,

Haathon se hath milte hain honton se hont
Dil se dil milte hain jab tumse milta hon,

Aahon me beh jaati hai tanhai ki har raat
Kai shikwe dil me rahte hain jab tumse milta hon...!!!


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Samnay Manzil Thi Aur Peechay Us Ki Aawaz



Samnay Manzil thi aur Peechay us ki Aawaz
Rukta to safar jata, Chalta to bicher Jata,

Manzil ki bhi Hasrat thi, aur us se Muhabbat Bhi
Ay Dil btaa mujh ko, Us wkt me kidher Jata,

Muddat ka safar bhi tha, aur Barson ki Shanasaai Bhi
Rukta to Bikher Jata, Chalta to Main Marr Jata,

Lagi Piyaas ghazab ki thi Pani main bhi Zeher Tha
Peeta to Marr jata, na Peeta to bhi Marr Jata...!!!

Tow Lines Poetry

Jis Ke Badlay Me Tum Mil Jao,
Main Kisi Aisi Naiki Ki Talaash Me Hon...!!!


اِس قدر شفاف کر دے گی یہ تنہائی مجھے
دیکھنے والوں کو تُو مجھ میں نظر آ جائے گا...!!!
Is Qadar Shafaaf Kar Degi Yeh Tahai Mujhy,
Dekhny Waloon Ko Tu Mujhme Nazar Aa Jaega...!!!

Khabi Aesa Bhi Ho Ke Main Ghumaan Karon,
Aur Tumhain Ro Ba Roo Paoon...!!! 

Main Sochon To Mera Khayal Ho Tum,
Main Mangon To Meri Duaa Ho Tum...!!!

Ruk Hi Jati Hai Nazar Had-E-Nazar Tak Ja Ke,
Dil To Chahtaa Hai Jahan Tum Ho Wahan Tak Dekhon...!!!

Subah Uthty Hi Mujhy Tu Miley,
Mujhy Uss Subah Ka Intazar Hai...!!!

Tumhain Bholain Gay Aur Woh Bhi Hum,
Ajeeb Bhool Hai Wese Tumhari...!!!

Dunia Tery Wajood Ko Karti Rahi Talaash,
Hamne Tere Khayaal Ko Dunia Bana Lia...!!!

Kyun Kissi Aur Ko Dukh Dard Sunaon Apnay
Apni Aankhon Se Bhi Zakham Chupaon Apnay,
Main Toh Qayem Hun Tere Gham Ki Badolat Warna
Yun Bikhar Jaon K Khud Hath Na Aaon Apnay...!!! 

Is Baarish Ko Keh Do Mery Aangan Me Naa Barsay,
Isay Dekh Kar Shiddat Say Kisi Ki Yaad Aati Hai...!!!



  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Quote for the Day 28Jun2013

We do not know when God will call us home, but we do know this: Each day is an opportunity to leave a testimony worthy of our faith. - Dave Branon


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Quote for the Day 27Jun2013

Take time today to appreciate beauty - natural beauty, art, people. Slow down, breathe deeply, smile. It is a beautiful world. - Jonathan Lockwood Huie


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Sometimes you have to take a step back





♥~"Sometimes you have to take a step back and look at your life, in order to take a step forward and move on in it.~ ♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Choose your own life path





♥~"Your life works out the way you want it too. Choose your own life path, don't let anyone else choose your path for you.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Don't be defined by your past




♥~"Don't be defined by your past, your past is the tutor of your present and is always preparing you for new experience. Forget about disappointment or any past mistakes that is keeping you from moving forward. Its never too late for a new beginning.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Hating people takes too much time




♥~"Hating people takes too much time. Forgive them not because they deserve it but because you are higher level than they are.~ ♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Let someone love you just the way you are as flawed as you might be




♥~"Let someone love you just the way you are as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Sometimes we get angry with people





♥~"Sometimes we get angry with people, when we should be angry with ourselves, because we gave them the power to change our mood and feelings.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

True friendship is seen through the heart, not through the eyes



♥~"True friendship is seen through the heart, not through the eyes. True friendship is not measured in days or decades. Real friendship is shown in time of troubles, prosperity is full of friendship.~ ♥


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

What kind of friend are you?



What kind of friend are you?


I grew up in the city where supposedly people are busy. But, since I am funny kind of person, knows how to mingle to different people from low to high so, for me one of the main ingredients of friendship is about "Give and Take". I was in high school when I have so many friends. I was a member of youth ministry though they don't know my background they always sees me as funny, friendly and lovable. I felt like I was unlucky with my family but I am lucky with my friends. Always painted on my lips those smiles like I don't have any problems. And it's the most unforgettable moments for me. A circle of friends whose always there with each other, will understand you and will guide you.

But when I reach my college life. It changed because I met a friend whose gonna be there if she just needs you. (well, maybe that's' my interpretation of the story). At first, it was okay for me to treat her. But later on, I felt too unfair. She asked me out, we went to mall, we watch in theater, we ate dinner and my whole week allowance was ruined. She is the one who will be responsible for our one week foods. At first it was all okay. Until it lasted for a month then someone told me, (hey, your a one day millionaire. You treat your friend in just one day you suffered for the whole week). And I just felt like they were treating me like their maid since I cooked the rice and even washed our plates after we eat. When I am the one who gave her food I didn't treated her like that. I felt like I was obliged to do the task. Until one day, me and one of my co-housemates fight about it. He said like I don't have a debt of gratitude much worst when he said (dead hungry-don't know if this is the correct term). I felt like I was slapped on my face. And I thought he never knew why I don't have money during school time. And I just silently go out. I never spoke. And I said to myself I will be more wiser this time. So every time I receive my allowance no one knew. If I want to eat in a restaurant I didn't say to my friend. I don't want to be selfish but it seems that she is just using me. She asked me to go for window shopping without knowing even our fair I will be the one to pay. We eat at (you know for me is already expensive restaurant)but I will be the one to pay. If she don't have money we can share for the payment not only me who will pay since she is the one who asked me out. Maybe I understand it if it just happened once or twice but MANY times. I think its so unfair.
But I ignore this kind of thinking but I never told her again when I can get my allowance. So she is contented if I brought something to her. But it is not ended there cos I am the one who pays for her snacks and viand. She eats for free. She cant buy her food because she said she don't have enough money but she can load her phone everyday. But I still ignored it. I just simply think that she is not a good friend. She told me about her problems and I guide her. I helped her not only emotional even financial though I am only a student too like her. She was in deep trouble with her boyfriend and then her family. I never left her. I supported her.

Then here comes my problem. I faced it with my self. She never asked, she never helped and she knows my problem from other people. If she's a real friend she will asked me and comfort me. But its okay for me. Until such time that I am tired of trying to understand our situation. I treasure our moments but its seems she's not. Here comes one of my friend. We became close because I know how deal with her. I know that no one is perfect so I am trying to understand things. This time the situation is- she is the one who is always treating me BUT I never used to take without giving. So I worked to her shop. I did everything. Its very hard to be perfect, its hard to please anyone just to like you. And that time I don't have a choice because I will stop going to school so I decided to work as a part time. But I think it is not a part time since after my class I went home and start working again even at the early morning. It continue until I was successfully graduated from my degree. And because of our friendship I don't want to work to any company even I have low salary. For me, you only once see a friend who is always there for you. I wasted lots of opportunities but it was all okay. I always said that I can find if I want but I don't want to lose our friendships. I've got a one step higher to my degree. But instead of praising me, it turned out into bad because she think that I became someone who is not me. And our cold war started in a little thing. At first I just wanted her to think sometimes that not just because she's older than me she is always right. At first I ignored her but later on even my friends is also involved in our fight. My friends greeted her but she just say nothing as if sees nothing. Maybe I could understand that if it happened once but how many times with different people.
So I started to ignore her too. And it lasted to maybe a month. Then here comes the time that my 1st friend(the one that I mentioned at the top) and her talked about me. How I am so bad. Maybe I owe an apology to my 1st friend but not to her. I never tell her that my friends always telling me to find a good job, that there's an offer because I know she will take it negatively. She always has a bad comments to every person and I'm sick of it. She always think that people are always after to what she have. She never see how they helped her maybe not financially but rather in service.

Just because of her interpretation she was left by those person who is always there for her. Maybe I'm tired of trying to understand her attitude. One time I'm tempted to text her. But after 1 day my friend told me that she sent a message to my close friends telling them that I am dangerous, cannot be trusted, everything that is bad. I was like hit by a big stone. Despite all the things we shared she is just wasted because of her negative interpretation.

Maybe, she was afraid that I can recover immediately from my lost than to her. And they are the only friends that I got a lot of lesson about friendship. I'm still happy that my old friends came back. We had a lot of time to mingle now not like before that I am like in a cage. My time is very limit even when I laughed still calculated. I am free now but still sad because we separated in in a bad way.

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Do the things you used to talk about doing but never did




♥~"Do the things you used to talk about doing but never did. Know when to let go and when to hold on tight. Stop rushing. Don't be intimidated to say it like it is. Stop apologizing all the time. Learn to say no, so your yes has some oomph. Spend time with the friends who lift you up, and cut loose the ones who bring you down. Stop giving your power away. Be more concerned with being interested than being interesting. Be old enough to appreciate your freedom, and young enough to enjoy it. Finally know who you are.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Life is a journey




♥~"Life is a journey. If you got everything you wanted all at once there would be no point of living. Enjoy the ride, and in the end you'll see these 'set backs' as giant leaps forward, only you couldn't see the bigger picture in the moment. Remain calm, all is within reach; all you have to do is show up everyday, stay true to your path and you will surely find the treasure you seek.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Anxiety is




♥~"Anxiety is when you can't stop the fear of your own thoughts. Feel trapped in your body, like a prisoner. And not knowing when this will all end is the worst of all.~♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

A Journey Of A Thousand Miles Begins With A Single Step





♥~"A lot of times when we see stars on TV, we don't really get to see or understand how much hard work that they were willing to put in to get to where they wanted to get to. br /> What is going to make you improve each day? Each step is important, and we have to be willing to document where we have been so that we can get a good sense in where we are going. br /> Make goals each day, and try your best to conquer them. Remember that there is no substitute for hard, consistent work. When you are willing to work hard each day, and take it step by step, you will eventually conquer each of your dreams. There is no substitute to taking the first step, and continuing to take step after step to get where you know in your heart that you should be.~ ♥

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS